Sensitive 5 | Bouncy Arcade
(part 3.99/4)
If only it was that easy..
I guess obesity won't exist.
Our Prophet Muhammad SAW (Peace be upon him) has stated that the stomach is the origin of every disease, and therefore observing a healthy diet is the best method of preventative medicine.
But it was close to impossible as the episode of dieting and binging was being played repeatedly.
And so was I exhausted.. The weight I've never witness before -- A failure accomplished.
The saddest thing is that despite gaining all the weight, I've never regained the only thing I craved for. Despite everything.. I'm still.. Miserable .
In search for gaiety and pleasure, I did everything that was supposed to be amusing. Like arcades and outings and all the delights!! Convincing myself, I tried taking parts and laughing to jokes like I've used to. But the ecstasy effect ended there. I wasn't even having them the 1st place. Nada. Just pure grief.. Everything was horribly horrible to me.
Maybe that's the thing that make it even worse. Because I'm trying too hard. Faking it too much. But what if I wasn't trying at all? Wouldn't that be worst ? I was in a constant confusion. To give up. Or .. To keep on .
At my weakest state, I wasn't consistent. There'll be lots of days where I'll be too exhausted with my life to even perform my daily responsibilities.. Prayers, Studies and even the annual Fasting we've did since 5. My moods cracks half, a quater, scattered to sharp pieces. I do have faith.. But I was impatient .
I often blammed PMS for such a bouncy . When the truth is that they shouldn't even be in the suspect list -- They weren't guilty.
If only it was that easy..
I guess obesity won't exist.
Our Prophet Muhammad SAW (Peace be upon him) has stated that the stomach is the origin of every disease, and therefore observing a healthy diet is the best method of preventative medicine.
But it was close to impossible as the episode of dieting and binging was being played repeatedly.
And so was I exhausted.. The weight I've never witness before -- A failure accomplished.
The saddest thing is that despite gaining all the weight, I've never regained the only thing I craved for. Despite everything.. I'm still.. Miserable .
In search for gaiety and pleasure, I did everything that was supposed to be amusing. Like arcades and outings and all the delights!! Convincing myself, I tried taking parts and laughing to jokes like I've used to. But the ecstasy effect ended there. I wasn't even having them the 1st place. Nada. Just pure grief.. Everything was horribly horrible to me.
Maybe that's the thing that make it even worse. Because I'm trying too hard. Faking it too much. But what if I wasn't trying at all? Wouldn't that be worst ? I was in a constant confusion. To give up. Or .. To keep on .
At my weakest state, I wasn't consistent. There'll be lots of days where I'll be too exhausted with my life to even perform my daily responsibilities.. Prayers, Studies and even the annual Fasting we've did since 5. My moods cracks half, a quater, scattered to sharp pieces. I do have faith.. But I was impatient .
I often blammed PMS for such a bouncy . When the truth is that they shouldn't even be in the suspect list -- They weren't guilty.
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